He smiles, it's like the radio...

It's been two months since Cory's passing and it, at the same time, feels like yesterday and forever. It still shocks me how I can miss someone I never knew so much. My parents and sister probably think I'm a complete loon for having mourned the way I have for the past couple of months, but they've all been so patient and sweet with me. At times I've felt absolutely insane for feeling so much about this man who I only knew through a television, but it's not just about the man. It's about what that man stood for, the passion which with he lived life and the amazing people I have in my life now because of him.

I have a lovely group of friends, who are also fans of Cory, and we've been leaning on one another; telling stories, sharing pictures. A couple of days after he passed I felt the overwhelming need for something, anything that would allow us to keep apart of him here with us forever. Yes, we will always have Glee; countless youtube videos and dvds, thousands of pictures and endless memories, but I needed something concrete. Something I could look at on a daily basis and remind myself of the strength and passion and love for life that Cory possessed. With my wonderful group of friends, we all chipped in and had a star officially named Finn Hudson in Cory's memory. Buying that star, receiving the certificate, sending it off to nine ladies with beautiful hearts, and sending off a copy with a donation check to Project Limelight Society - an organization Cory put his heart into - was one of the proudest, most cathartic moments of my life.

I've been watching interviews in which a lot of his castmates have talked, albeit, briefly about him and they all have basically said the same thing: It's tragic, he's forever missed. But Cory loved life and he'd want us all to carry on and do the same. 

"The show's gotta go all over the place."

There's really no point of this blog other to commemorate the 2 month anniversary of the day the world grew a little dim but the heavens beamed with a bright new light. I think of Cory every time I hear thunder, whenever I look up at the stars, or place my hand over my heart and feel the star pendant on my necklace. I pray for him every night, knowing he's perfect and happy and whole, and knowing he's the most kickass guardian angel Lea could ever want. On that note, I leave you with this beautiful picture of Cory that captures him at, what I think is, his absolute best - loving life.